This week was a hard one for me.  I had my 31 week appointment and my doctor told me she wanted me to get a special ultrasound to check the growth of baby girl.  I am not measuring normal, and even though I know that it is because I am carrying her far in my back, I still was sick about it.  Sounds stupid, I know…I realize people get these all the time – some people get multiple growth ultrasounds during their pregnancies, but I still was worried.  Mostly because I had joked all this time about Zach and I having a midget baby and felt now that it was really happening.  Also, it seemed as though everything with this pregnancy had been going so well that something bad was bound to happen, eventually.  They scheduled my appointment for Thursday morning.

It was basically a replica of my 20 week anatomy scan.  It was much quicker and I got the same tech as I had at my previous ultrasound, who I loved.  Turns out all the heartache was pointless because baby girl is perfectly fine.  She is actually measuring a week early!  It was a huge relief to me knowing that all was well and I feel incredibly crazy for feeling so worried.

By complete coincidence I had scheduled a 4D ultrasound later that evening, weeks prior.  After the good news earlier that morning I began to get really excited to see what she looked like.  As soon as Zach got home from work we left for Fetal Fotos.

I’m a huge Beatles fan, thanks to my dad.  Baby girl has a few subtle hints in her nursery, even.  The first thing that came to my mind when I saw our little girl’s face was the song “I’ve Just Seen a Face”.  Zach grabbed my hand and I have never felt anything like this particular feeling before.  All this time she has been weird skeletal images on a screen, and now she was a really tiny human.  Our tiny human!  With eyes that could open and close, hands that were grabbing her toes, and HAIR!  My baby has HAIR!  I was completely bald when I was born (and Zach didn’t have too much more hair than I did) so I was elated at the fact that we could see her tiny tufts of hair on the back of her head.  No words can describe it, honestly.  That’s why the song kept playing over and over in my mind, I think.

I’ve just seen a face
I can’t forget the time or place
Where we just meet
She’s just the girl for me
And I want all the world to see
We’ve met…

Fallin’, yes I am fallin’
And she keeps callin’
Me back again…